today i went out with xanne, damm tired, i was in school until 3++, then i rushed home and bathe. the amazing thing about bathing is that i only took 10 minutes to wash my hair and my body[of course] which i usually take about 30 minutes to 45 minutes. then we went to bali lane to see dolfies, it's so fun, the owner, alice is a nice person, she is also funny!!!
after that we went to eat dinner at sake sushi, which we spend about 2-3 hours there talking and eating, we started laughing so loudly at the store that almost everyone looked at us, well, what can i say, it's xanne; the hyper one[oh, just for today] then we wanted to eat at some other shop of deserts but there was alot of people so we went to eat creep!!!!
oh! it's was heavenly tasty!!! i felt that i was in heaven!! then we went to kinokunya and xanne and pan was like so into BL, i don't really like it, but i am still ok with it [judging from the storyline] yeah......
eat creep...... [very random]
I know this will not remain forever
However it's beautiful
Your eyes,hands and you warm smile
They're my treasure
It's hard to forget
I wish there was a solution
Don't spend your time in confusion
I will turn back now and spread
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should i go drifting in the wind
Higher and higher in the light
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should i go drifting in the wind
Across the sky,just keep on flying
keisoku no dekinai itami to keisoku no dekinai jikan no narega
subete wo umete shimaou toshitemo
soredemo watashi ni wa kanjirareru
sora kara ochitekuru no wa
sora kara ochitekuru no wa ame de wa nakute
Did i ever chain you down to my heart
'Cause i was never afraid of you ?
No,I couldn't hold you any longer
Love is not a toy
Let go of me now
The time we spend is perpetual
Our future is not real
I'll leap into the air
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should i go drifting in the wind
Higher and higher in the light
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should i go drifting in the wind
Across the sky,just keep on flying
sora kara ochitekuru no wa are wa ame de wa nakute
this is a song that has never failed to inspire me time to time, be it happy or sad this song is always by my side......
i console myself with this song [i know that it is very emo], look esp at the chorus, my boken wings.....
the sentences that formed the song has a lot of meaning in it, each time when i am down, i listen to it endless time and console myself, this is how i face the darkest day of my life and also the the times when i am lonely......
song name: Broken wings [of course]
from: trinity blood
trust is something that you can never buy or sell, trust is also something that you can lose as easily as one, two, three. i am doubtful, yet i trust you...... this sensation is a feeling that no one can ever explain in words to me. this is something really unexplainable, really......
ask yourself, do you trust the people around you? i confess that i have doubts in some people sometimes, but not all the time. Gaining trust in your friends is like having a level up in a game, this trust could to stripped of straight away once you lose the game. Hard to say, but gaining it back is so hard...... it was never easy......
In this game of life, friends are someone that helps you to level up and you help them level up. if you doubt them, they might be demoted to a lower rank......
I never doubt people who are very, very, very close to me. They are important to me, so am i important to them, because i know we are the pillaers of each other's life, besides out parents.
i am damm damm damm tired today..... maybe it was last night's sleep. i didn't really sleep well, maybe it was the burn. well i can't really sleep...... well NVM forget it. well today's monday...... and i have monday blues i don't really study or listen in class on mondays as i will be just waiting for the time goes by. tell you a good news. my burn have healed in one day's time. Today i was on duty like i have to stay back in a room, well to study..... i was bored after studying so i borrowed a book from the library, well you may find this funny but i borrowed a book on loneliness, well my friends are shocked and i started to sing the lonely song. i usually hang out with my best of friends, well sad to say, sometimes i do feel lonely with my best friend. never underestimate the power of relationship, they can make you feel happy and high but they also can make you feel sad and lonely. Well sometimes when i am surrounded by friends, i do feel lonely, well i mean this is part of nature, but becareful, research have show and prove that if you are feeling very very very lonely, it might affect our immume system, feelings and emotions do affect our immune system. well that's it...... i have to go over to my aunt's place for dinner.....
today i went out with my sis, it was fun but tired.
we were at plaza singapura and we walk to the cathay, then there was a mall call that park mall but it was the words that wasn't so clear to me and i thought it was pork mall.
me and my sis thought about possible solution of how we might embrass ourselves.
now i am home...... damm got nothing to do, the tv isn't showing any nice show. so sian.
oh oh, and yesterday i was in the ava room doing my maths, i was doing statistic, i have no idea what was goign on i just kept on doing until a question dam and i was so angry and i slammed the book on the table followed by my fullscap, pencil case and caluator and declared that i didn't want to do it anymore. damm i was actually not that furious but i really was stressed up by that question and boy if i didn't tell you, i hate stress. i was so stressed up that my ear was so red and i didn't know, obviously, you can't see your ear.
last year, on this very day, 10.47 pm, someone imptant to me left his world and went to heaven.
at that very moment i stood beside the bed of hers and cried.
i cried not because that she is gone, but because on that particular day, i didn't say that i loved her.
as i stood there, my heart was feeling a terible ache, it feels like someone is ripping it off from me.
From that day onwatds, i knew that she wasn't mine, but god's
so,
if you have someone that you loved please do tell them that you love them.
a little poem or paragraph that i thought of:
don't assume
don't assume that he/she knows that you love him/her
don't assume that they would not leave you that early
don't assume that she/he would be fine til the end
don't assume that you think you love them
you will never know when they are leaving
you will never konw that they love you until you say so
you will never know that accidents may happen on them
you will never know when they will stop talking to you
you will never know when they are finally taking a good rest from like
so, if you have someone in your mind that you love, don't assume that they know that, they will never know until you say so
please, do tell them you love them before it's too late.
don't live life just to regret......
hey there, i hope you people out ther know that assumption is a sin [i reapeat] ASSUMPTION IS A SIN! i do not need to reapeat as a human mind only need to read the word once and he or she will understand, if you don't i don't think you are a human being......
yeah..... if some1 hates you, please, please do not sent the person smses, messages, emails, letters and instant message e.g MSN and say that you are really disappointed because you think or assume that he or she had chaged, but in reality, you are the one that made changes to your character.
i know i may not be a good friend, but if i ever made my friends or BFF angry, i will spend 15 minutes of my life thinking through if that was my fault, if it was, i will apologize, if i am not in the wrong, i will stand on my rights. another 15 minutes is used to see if you are my true friends, true friends stand up for each other will 2-faced friends just leave you in the lurched.
I hate people who want to use you as a bridge to cross their 'river'[meaning bad times] and when you are in trouble, they do not stand up for you are just think that you are just a passer-by in their life. If you are this kind of people, please open your eyes and change your character, if you continue to be like this, you will have no friends, your life will be all dull while my life is filles with beautiful and exciting colours. So please, do wake up, there is still room for improvent if you want to change. If you do, i promise i will never leave you in a lurched as i said, best friend stand up for each other.
many do not know what they are doing yet, so if you smoke eat drugs, do gangsterism acts, plaese do not continue or carry on, they will only ruin your life. And to the friends of those who are blinded, please, please do not hesitate to slap them or scold them awake, i have lost a 13-year friendship just like that. well she is a nice girl, and wow, i knew her since 3, and i just loose her one day.
if you hesitate, the day will just pass by
without you knowing, friends will just say bye
never let your friends do the wrong things
as he or she will never be able to think
what is right or wrong.
So if you have to do it even it will spoil your friendship
i will only say:
just do it
never live life to regret
never let her to the bad side
as she will never come back to your side
so do not hesitate
Today it rain very heavily, i ran all the way to collect the flag and i was totally drenched, when i went back to class, everyone looked at me and nadia was like are you wet? anyway, nadia was like the worst F&N buddy ever, she don't wash and she don't deal with hot stuff and when ni tried to handled the hot stuff she said that i am trying to be a hero...... damm..... i am tired, i had AC and cca today...... it was tiring, i couldn't stand still and guess what? next week tuesday have full dress rehearssal..... i dun wanna bring my gown to school!!!!! the worst part of it is that after school i will be very sticky and i will feel very irritated......
tomorrow...... my dooms day...... maths!!!! i wonder i will pass my maths for my CT, my school they call it CT but others call it CA....... went i reached this level, i am becoming more and more paranoid if i can pass my exams or not and i find myself more and more restrict as in i dun really wan tto talk to my friend now a days, some are wondering if i was angry or something like that.even teachers said that in my remarks...... i wonder if i am becoming weirder day by day..... i didn't know that sec 4s are that busy until this year....... haix...... i am worried, is like i am afraid that i would fail my N level, where would i go after that? may be ITE, i am not afraid to go ITE but i am afraid that my parents would push my to retake N levels, which i mostly don't want to because i don't want people to look at me differently...... yes people do say 'dun care what people say or think about you' it's easy to say, but nevertheless, people still do matter how people judge them.......
I can't come up eith any title, so therefore it shall be titleless......
yes lol.......
today's a boring day, it's like 10.44 when i start to write this post...... and i am suppose to do my F&N, it seems endless, i just can't finish my research......
All that it is in my head is all the fact of eggs, minerals and vitamins in it, i am only like halfway done, i am damm sad cos i wanted to finish by today....... haiz
shit i got to go...... bye people
to friends: ILY
TO ppl reading this post: Thanks
it's like the first day of term 2, darn, i am busy this week
Mon: AC, Tues: F&N, Wed: Choir Cum AC, Thurs: Maths test [dun wanna talk bout it]......
Haiz...... students now a day lead a busy lifestyle......
then, today i saw Serafina [nice name], she is still with the cast...... i always wanted to signed on it and yes! i am the second one to sign it..... hoho....... the first one is her Aunt which she wrote dumb ass, i wonder what kind of encouragement was that??? telling her to be more careful next time??
i signed my name there XD
and Roxanne signed on it after i did.......
Fina looked at me "is that all you are gonna write?"
i took another marker of another colour and wrote, 'get well soon' the cast was hard and hard to write on it, my words are small and it is hard to see
"What? 'Get well Sucker' ?" roxanne looked at the words that i wrote and i slapped my forehead
me and fina just threw her that glare, "it's get well soon, roxanne"
oh, that wasn't the first glare that i threw at her that morning, she used to have long hair and after the holidays, she cut her hair and i threw the same glare at the morning assembly.
today lunch, i had with rubini [BFF] and some of her drama friends, we were all discussing about the VP that came that morning. rachel said "that's that lady that we mistook as the tailor" i was like OMG but befoer she went to her, she checked with the teacher and found out that she is the VP i told them, imagine rachel didn't clarify with the teacher and go striaght to her, she would get into big trouble........ i had a lot of fun that afternoon...... next is my worst nightmare, Rebecca.
Rebecca is a girl from my cca and never fails to freak me out, because she always tries to seduce my, you ask me how? with that drama mama face and personalilty of hers......
wow, this is big!!!
